Built by someone who has been there

It all started on 31.05.2019, at my first panic attack I thought I had a heart attack, of course I called an ambulance, and the doctors told me everything was fine and they did an injection, of course I still felt stings in my chest and I could not breathe, but I finally fell asleep.

The next 6 months were an ordeal because I did not know what was happening and during the day I could not breathe and was dizzy, almost every night I had a panic attack and I thought that after falling asleep I would not wake up, I thought I was going to die.

Every night, every time I drove, I thought I was going to have an accident, plus a lot of other things. I still did not know what I had until after 6 months I dreamed that my teeth were falling out and I searched the meaning of this dream on Google and I read that I may have anxiety disorders and I saw that the dream was my salvation.

I went to the psychiatrist who offered me some pills for treatment, but I noticed that because of these pills it was harder for me to think and when I stopped taking them that condition appeared again. I did not know what to do.

Well this is where the hard journey really began. I decided to get off the pills and put up with the panic attacks again and manage to beat my anxiety by convincing myself that I was healthy.

I started to be more selfish and think more about myself, I started not caring about all the bad things that were happening around me. I was in the period when the quarantine started and I decided not to care about the virus and not to be afraid of anything.

All this time I was reading, doing different activities, and meditating but still it was not enough to overcome the anxiety and have a normal life. Yes, all activities including sports help but as I said, something was missing to overcome my anxiety.

Even though I was trying to increase my self-esteem and develop myself as much as possible, I could not find the missing piece of the puzzle that would help me.

Before I had anxiety, I was an atheist for 3 years, then I realized how important faith is in our lives. Not religion but faith, let's not confuse the two.

What I lacked was a philosophy of life, so I decided to create my own philosophy to follow. I decided to be grateful for every moment, for every day of my life until I die. From then until now every night I thank God that I am well and that my family is well. If you are an atheist you can do this by thanking the Universe. I came back to faith, keeping only the good parts and removing everything negative.

All of this together with the multitude of anxiety management tactics, and most importantly the belief that I am healthy, helped me overcome anxiety. If I am having a panic attack and I think I am going to die, then there is no point in panicking because if I am going to die then I am going to die. Over time the physical symptoms just go away.

In conclusion, I believe that anxiety was given to us for a reason, namely to discover and form our character. I believe that I have the power to help people overcome their anxiety. It is possible. I am the best example.

I hope you learned something from my story and that this overview of my journey inspires you on your journey as well.